Man, sometimes i really hate myself... There are things that I feel that I should do, but whats up with the bitterness.

Why do I ALWAYS have to convince/force myself into doing things that I do not feel like doing or do not want to do?

Why do i ALWAYS have to give my last sweet away no matter how much I want to keep it for myself?

Why do i ALWAYS have to give up what I want just because I believe he/she will be happy?

Am I really that selfish that I have to force myself into doing things that I'm suppose to do, actions that are supposedly right? Wish I'm a better person so that all these comes naturally. If only I am capable of doing them happily and willingly all the time huh...